I wish the ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened.

So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.

and boy did Gandalf nail that one.

choices.
fate.
things we can't change.
trying.

i don't know if i believe in any of these things. i can think of good reasons why each one, may not be real.

do we ever have a choice? i've been a victim of something besides choice many a time. for example, do we choose who we fall in love with? i think not.

fate seems more likely then. this was meant to happen. but i've had that rug pulled from under me too, and i think everyone has. feeling like you are where you are "supposed to be" and find that you kind of more or less wanted to be there. perhaps you were supposed to make a choice, but got lazy and decided to let life happen.

things we can't change. what if we can change anything and everything? again, i'm more likely to believe that human beings and myself, are just lazy. how do we become wise enough to know we can't change something. till i'm sure i'm THAT wise, i'll feel better trying to change those things i "can't". attack. fight. punch fate in the face.

trying. at the end of trying and trying and trying and trying, am i just wasting my time. that's the final question for me. it's not empowering, or positive. i guess it's nihilistic or futile. how much valuable time do you put into something before you are a lunatic. or an artist?

it must all be a question of when you play each card?
is there something to be said for a feverish zeal and passion? the ones who try endlessly, maybe dying without a single fruit of their labours? knowing you are meant to be where you are right now? choosing to believe in something, being the master of your own ship?